nothing

I want to cry, but I cant
I want to process thoughts, but I can't
I feel engulfed by nothing-ness
It's all floating by

Searching for so long to find the core
Where did this hurt begin
Why does it always come down to the same battle?

I feel like I should just plaster epic fail on my head
call the game early

I wont' let go of whatever I'm holding on to
I don't know where to land if I fall
The world is full of hurt, and I'm trying to learn to love in it

Too afraid of losing what little I have
Too many times it's hurt

Why can't I ever get it right?